not one minute of your life will ever be the same because you will never be the same. Your heart hurts so much it feels like actual physical pain. You have been blindsided by a betrayal, knocked down and kicked in the stomach. You took care of him and gave him your whole heart, soul and being and he goes out with other women behind your back.
There is no band-aid that can put the broken pieces of your heart back together. There is no pill you can take to ease the pain. There are no words that make you feel better. Nothing makes the agony stop and you feel as if you want to die. You do not care about anything anymore because his betrayal was such a devastating blow to your self-esteem, what could possibly matter.
You cannot believe that someone you cherished so much could betray you without a trace of remorse. You feel like a fool for loving someone who obviously does not love you. Everything you have ever done together means absolutely nothing. You realize he believes there is nothing special between the two of you any more and most likely, there never was.
You go into the bathroom and want to get sick but nothing comes. So, you sit on the floor and sob into a towel feeling you have just wasted your time and energy and love on someone who does not care about you. You think you will never get through it. You hold on to that towel because you are afraid if you let go of the towel, you will let go of yourself.